365 days to greatness.

I've decide to truly try at making myself a better and more stressful person, and make learn to write along the way. I have a few things that I am planning on doing.

1. Try hard to build my company back to the success it was in the past. Learn new software and technics and try my hardest.
2. Get fit and healthy. Follow my diet and exercise routing developed by my friend Cindy Hardy.
3. Work on my mental strength. Daily meditation and actually doing the program "The Master Key System". Supposedly this has helped such visionaries as Bill Gates and Oprah Winfrey.

The daily discipline of blogging and my work toward my goals will help. Please forgive my ups and downs as I move forward.

I'm off to see my friend Daria and Andre's new house tonight. I must keep my eating under control.

Wish me luck!

Shoor First Focus Later

My partner Dave alerted me today to this cool new way of shooting photos. It's called the Lytro's Camera and it lets you focus after you shoot. We checked out the demo and it was quite impressive. I'm still wondering exactly how it works but our first thoughts are it acquires with a small aperture (so everything is in focus) and then via software lets you change the focal plane. No matter how it works it VERY cool, check it out!

Link to the NYTimes article

Lost and alone

2010 was a terrible year for me. So much happened and I’m still trying to get a handle on myself and what happened. I had some great professional triumphs (e.g. I shot Jude Law, Kelsea Crammer, Sean Hayes, and numerous other celebrities. In retrospect I wish I hadn’t. In my head I thought that it would help my career, it mad it so much worse. I got to see my work on posters, in Time Square on a huge billboard, and on CBS TV. I was feeling pretty proud of myself, but then suddenly everyone stopped talking to me. It was amazed that no one wanted to wok with me anymore. Months later I heard about a group of local photographers who were bad mouthing me. Seriously I was and still am in shock people I thought were friends that I supported did that to me.

Someone I felt was a close friend basically used my company to get tons of designs to make serious money. She then refused to pay us even though we had a signed contract. This is someone I thought I knew and when I look back at all the posts she read and commented on I see she was just using me.

Between these things and my relationship getting worse and worse, I really lost it. I ended up moving out and away from my wife. I still get to see my son but I am embarrassed and feel unworthy. Started therapy and got on some antidepressants that help a little.

Just feel so hurt and attacked that I attacked people I love back. I'm so alone and mad at myself. I have an urge to at least try to make some art to get the feeling out but I can't. It's just terrible and I hate it!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Trailer Official HD

Celeb hi

I shot the photos for this years Tony Awards :) We had alot of fun and shot some really amazing people. I'm very glad I did it and hope it helps me get more work.

I love this poster of Jude Law:

I must post more often

The title says it all :)

The book

I'm an open book with pages left to write, this is the story of my life